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Tuesday, July 15, 2008
sowy fer not updatin my blog the past few daes. been bz wif skul assignmnts && not in the mood fer bloggin actuali. but now, since the mood is bck, && my Ms. Cuak haf been tellin me to updte, i shall updte den. *giggles*so, wher shall i strt ehk? hmmh. *tinkin*oke! yuhh! i'v highlightd my hair larh seyy! yeapyeap! did it ystrdy. accmpny momma cut her hair, den i highlight my hair lorr. so, i can strike off anotha ting frm my 'DESIRES' agn! woohoo~niwae, i was stumped upon rcving -his- fone kol juz now. tears welled up in my eyes wen tokin to him. i dint wanna cry. but upon hearin eur voice, i dunno shuld i b happy, or shuld i gt angry. seriuzly, im conpius. im soo miszin eu lyke crazy, but on the otha hand, i hate eu. why? why must eu appear oni now? afta been miszin fer soo many daes. why must eu oways cum && go as && wen eu lyke? hu do eu tink i am? im hurt. im totali disappointd wif eur kinda attitude. eu even blame me fer not findin eu? lyke HELLO? den whos number did i msgd to all dis while ryte? at leaz i haf the initiatif of findin eu. unlyke eu oke?! isit soo difficult to juz spare 1 min of eur tyme, && rply to the msges? i'v been tellin eu since dae one, tat i dun lyke to kol on sumone. eu knew bout it! but yet? now eur tellin me tat eu dun lyke to msg ppl. eu prefer to kol instd. so why cant eu kol, since eu dun lyke to msg? i dun undastnd it. we haf known each oder fer 3 yrs now. its neither too long, nor too short i must say. but its seems lyke eu noe nuthin bout me. ZERO! ZILCH!if eu wish to noe, its partly bcoz of eu the reasn why im not muvin on my lyfe wif sumone els. i'v been goin ard tellin ppl, I AM MUVIN ON, witout eu by my side. but actuali, im not. yess. i noe im a hypocrite. wat els can i do besides puttin on dis fake smile of mine? hmmh. i dunno why, but i juz haf dis strong feelin tat no matter wat, wif hueva im gonna b wif ryte now, one day, i am stil gonna b wif eu. well, mebbe tats juz part of my wishful tinkin. but i do hope tat dae wil cum tho. Amin.wadev it is, im stil survivin. im content wif wat i haf now. my famly, frens. dey'r the one hu haf been wif me all dis while. i lufv lufv em! *smiles*to my otha guy-frens :
i reely hope tat eu wont put too much hope on me. i dowan to hurt eu guys. nor i wanna gt hurt. i dowan to lie to eu && even myself. i'v said it b4, && im gonna say it agn. IM NOT READY. the confident of meetg or being 2geder wif sumone new is juz not der oke? so pls? spare me dis tyme can? i noe im unfair, but its fer eur own gud too. shuld eu manage to get a better gerl den me, i'l b happy fer eu. eventho i noe its my lost. but yea, eu'l haf my blessin still. :)
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