Sunday, November 8, 2009
time check ; 4.25 am
still culdnt get to slp! why? coz since 11pm until now, i'v been tryna figure out wats my log in pswrd fer my lappie! yess! lyke bodo ryte! forgot own pswrd! pfft! and if eu wanna xpect me to depend on my pswrd hint, itu pon tkle harap! bukan-bukan jek! stoopid siaa yeul! *slaps forehead* my mind seriuzly went blank siaa afta switchin on the lappie. yg penting skrg tgh pkai comp yg irrit nie ehk. screen gedabak. the keyboard, or shud i say the spacebar specifically, yg menguji kesabaran aku. speaker tkle dgr. grrr! sumpah irrit nak mamposss! haiyaa! den hw?! den hw?! i wudnt wanna reboot my lappie! NOOOOO!!!!! i reely nid to brainstorm and figure out my pswrd! god, pls helpppp! mcm nak menangis tak berlagu nie! :'(
ohh, speaking of menangis, i'v been gettin emotional lately. dis tyme, TOO emotional. gt carried away easily. fer 3 consecutive days, i broke dwn. hows tat? the ferst was wen i had my date wif BitchyBoo, last Tue. wadev she said tat nyte, reely touches my heart. bout wat? its juz between us. well, not reely actuali. coz -he- was beside me. i assume -he- wud listen to it too. alaa, i dun mind anyway. -he- ardy knew bout it.
nex, was the following dae, wich is, Wed. i was doin some filing at werk wen suddenly my fav song, 'Already Gone', was played on air. i reminisced wadev BitchyBoo confessed to me the prev nyte. i was seriuzly touched by her words. i min, we'v been frens fer 4 yrs nw. but dis is the ferst tyme, she said sumtin soo meaningful and sweeetttttt nak mamposs! awwww~ bitch! sumpah aku sayang kau giler babs! and eu dun nid to feel guilty fer making me cry oke? eur nt in the wrong at all! abe da tgh emosi-emosi psl BitchyBoo confessions, skali tak tau mcm mane le terpkir psl si jantan sundaleeee tu ehk? amcm bole terselit dlm montage aku pon tak tau larh kan! but wat i noe, i was tinkin bout wat he did to me. wat wrong haf i done, till i deserve dis frm him? rumours, badmouthing. haix. *shakes head*
lastly, it was Thur. and dis is the worst one i tel eu! afta werk, met 2 of my BeBoTz, Nanie and Naf, fer dinner. met at TeaTarik, Tamp. gedebak gedebuk, met -him- at 9pm. chilled, heart-to-heart talk, confessions, story tellin bout the past. tats wat we did. and i broke dwn during our convo. ni nangis rabak nye! kejap, kejap je nangis. i guess i'v reached my breaking dwn point ah. bout wat? the reality. wat els? tats why i gt carried away, crying. -he- was der fer me the whole tyme, lending his ears and his shoulder to cry on. oso, ders a point of tyme, he broke dwn afta tellin me sumtin related bout him.
i felt totali dwn tat nyte, till i dun even feel lyke goin home or even sleep. padahal the nex dae keje tau. imagine, frm 9pm, ehh, frm keje pagi in fact!, to 6.20am lydat. *shakes head* ape agi, smpi uma mcm pink panther ah. msok mcm pencuri. hehs. the best part is, i didnt even inform my parents tat i'l be goin home late. they oni knew i was at Tamp larh. daddy did call me a few tyms. but i didnt ans. why? coz i didnt wanna let em see me in tat kinda state if i go home. i didnt wanna let em noe tat i cried or wher i am. i oni want em to see me smiling and laughing. tats it. i dun wanna upset em. but i admit, sumtyms its pressurising and depressing fer me to handle all dis "dramas". tat xplains the "tsunami" fer 3 consecutive daes. still, the nex dae kena interrogate wif daddy. but, i didnt say a word.
and to eu J_B_A,
TERIMA KASIH CINTA. :')
psst ; 051109, unforgettable and sweetest moments. :)
